This brings me no joy.

I am sooooooo sad that I have not had time to sit with myself. Creative time. Time where I can take life's Lemons and make juicy, delicious, sweet, refreshing lemonade. I've just been juggling these stupid ass lemons. BOOOOOOOOOO!! I can't even juggle!! So yea, it's been beyond a mess. I love to blog!! To share my thoughts, as scattered as they may be. I can't even sit still long enough to do so. I gotta make a change. I don't care how much money I make as long as I am happy. As long as I am fulfilled by the end of the day. My days have literally been 9 A.M. clock in, 6 P.M. clock out, 6:30 P.M. get to theatre, 8 P.M. PLAY ON STAGE :), 10:30ish P.M. figure out how much I'll hate my life the next day,...if I go out that night, 1:00 A.M. arrive home, engage nightly routine, sleep, then repeat the next day!!! Daaaaaaang, it's a lot sometimes. But, what gets to me most is that the biggest chunk of my day is invested in working on someone else's passionate project.

It makes me kinda jealous. More and more so daily. I think....hmmmmmmm....I could be crafting. I could be building MY brand. I could be receiving more joy!! This is what I will be working toward because "my dream is to live as an artist". I want to take hold of my dreams and make them a reality bit by bit. I am a realistic person and so no I don't want to quit my job and become a struggling artist, however, I intend to focus on my passion like it's running dry. Like it could make me millions one day, as a matter of fact, like it makes me millions today!! When I consider what I'm receiving for the amount time I invest "workin for man", it's bad news bears. Well, I'm seeking good vibrations, negative nancys can exit stage right....NOW!! Sam Cooke said "a change gon come" I say HOLLA!! I will not just talk about it, I will make it happen. I am an actor, I feed on action.

As I finish up this blog, the shortest blog ever, I am sad. Sad because it's Friday, Friday, and I wanna get down on Friday but noooooooooo 7 A.M. comes oh so early and it's already midnight. :( I am also happy!! For lots of reasons. I have an able mind to share my thoughts and fingers to type it up. I have a job! I have a vehicle of expression, without fear of execution. Friends and family who love me. I could go on and on and so the next time I blog it will not be full of complaints, it will be full of thoughts on 'Passing Strange' and who knows what else. Thanks for listening to, well reading about, my rant of disgust and my hope for change. If I were with you right now I'd give you a biiiiiiiiiggg HUG!! Really though, I do need to make a change so that I have more time on my hands to craft my art form and so that my blood pressure and stress level stays low low low low low low low low. <---in my Flo-Rida voice ;) Til next time guys.